Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Is it just me ..... Oh yeah Happy New Year

Why if I let you have it you can't just take it and go?
Let me call you for the next time

You don't run the show

It can't be that good
Well maybe hell yeah it's good

I asked other females
They look at me funny (side eye)

My sis said I give guys the Lynn Spin (Girlfriends ref.)

I do nothing special

I have been told but Really?

If we sex first you don't want a relationship
Silly Boys Trick Are For Girls

Sex can be emotionless for me
So I usually do without unless I have a man

Low body count
I tend to go back to what I know instead of trying new

I can wrap my mind around why a man would want be with me if we just sex

This is a recent occurrence I found in men
Just two

These are grown men I dare not deal with boys I would have a damn following if I did that.

What do you think?

Is this just me or does this happen to all girls?

Oh yeah Happy New Year.

Have a great time if you drink don't drive till tomorrow.

I don't get into these winter holidays too cold to be celebrating

If you party tonight get a driver or a cab or take the train


Saturday, December 20, 2008

Lover Reincarnated

Have ever met someone that made you feel like you have been together before?
Like the feelings so strong that it makes you wonder "what happened the last time"
Or if there was a last time.

I have read up on most major religions (fascinates me) and a few of the central Asian religions have the theme of reincarnation (awesome but strange phenomenon). If this is taken as true that mean you will on reach nirvana (peace, wholeness, heaven whatever you call it) when you have done right by the few and the many. But what about love where does love fall into this big umbrella of reincarnation. I don't like to read other peoples views on the religions in questions I like to stick to the whole book or scroll that they derived from (fact based person). So I went to the store and bought a few books on love and reincarnation. What I read from those books is that in some past life you can fall deep in love and it could in tragically or it ends because of something simple. Each life you go through you may or may not meet this person but when you do it will be like meeting a long lost love but you will not remember what had occurred before. Strange right this is where the thought of soul mate comes from.

Personal Experience:
I have been running into the same guy now for a year at the club. When we first met it like damn I like him (we'll call him green eyes) although he never said a word to me. My girls and me got to the dance floor and I see him across the room with his boys. Green eyes just could not take his eye off me and it was like a magnet was pulling us together. Eventually he told his boys that he was going to go dance and they followed. It seemed as though he knew everyone but we could not stop watching each other. We finally met up on the floor again this time he spoke. Voice so familiar i was searching in my mind to see it where I heard it before. We talked for about 5mins (the usual hi how are you blah blah blah). Green eyes asked me to dance so I proceed to dance. We dance the whole night and it didn't bother me and it usually does. He bought me a drink and we talked at the bar for a few minutes but it seemed like hours. We exchanged number and other info. I was on my way out we he said "I know this may sound strange but I think we have met". I am think oh boy I sexed that and I forgot. I shake my head no and told him to call.

In the beginning all Green Eyes wanted to do was see me again at the club but I don't go very often so the likelihood of that is low. For about 2 or 3 months I hear nothing from him. I am thinking all that game he was spitin at me that night wow he had me open. My girls and I decided to go to the club for my friend Court's birthday. I am dancing minding my own business celebrating when he touches my hand with the intent to get my attention. I look over and there he is. I am thinking get ready for the gaming to begin. he says hi and we dance. Once again I am incapsulated by him dancing and talking. We discused why he has not called me in a couple of months. He tells that he didn't think I want to see him.

It's been a year now and th connection is stronger than ever I feel like I know him. Like I know the answer to the questions I ask him. His views on family and friends are in sync with mine. We have yet to discover what else is out there for us but we are trying to hangout and do normal things outside the club. I am trying see where it is going because I want to know what it is about him the is so hypnotizing.

Have you ever met a guy that made you feel like you have met before?

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Boys and Men

Men, Boys, Men, Boys
Big difference here

Why don't some men iron their clothes?
Is it hard to them.

Why do men have ugly feet more often than women?
Is there something in the water, DNA, past lives?
Some are not ruff but they just are not appealing.
Weird huh?

College guys and High school guys are the same
But I knew that at 16

I have never dated a guy that went to my school
What is it like?
Don't you need space?

Making me happy is important to my man

If only I had a man yet I do have boys I like though

Guys know who is boss
ME duh
But we can take turns in the bedroom

Guys with full lips are delicious
They can kiss me
Hope they know how

Guys keep your spit in your mouth
Not on my face
I can teach them how to kiss
Yet they might get addicted

Love a man who looks put together
Nice clothes, shoes, teeth
oh yeah BUTT

Why am I waiting on him to come around?
Oh yeah he seems worth it
Damn it he is cute and fine

Why do guys like to slap your butt in public?
If you slap mine I can slap yours

The older I get the more I look for in a Man
@ 14 It was about money and gifts
@ 16 it was about money and gifts and good sex
@ 19 it's about lust and love (my internal battle)

Love and Lust their has to be a balance to this

Boys, Men, Boy, Man, Boys, Men