Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Knowing nothing till the end
Earning it more and more
Looking forward to what's in store
I fell with lustful eyes and an
Hating every second while we are apart
Hearing my minds eye "You're letting your feelings show"
Deep and long and tender to touch
Wanting to submerge myself in your much
Waiting for the time to come
Peaking at the top
Ready to hop
And fell from grace
Now I am don't wanna race
I am pushing you away
Out from my way
While the tears fall
I get bitter
Losing to her yearning time and time
Spending your last dime
Entertaining thoughts of her
Deepening the blur
Hint of it surfacing and bubbling
On all who can see
She is holding the key
Waiting on you to show her the way
The pathway to play
Enticed by every word on her lips
As you watch her hip
Sway in that methodical way
Praying that she may stay
Just a little longer than forever
Friday, June 19, 2009
This is a Short Film
Co-Wrote by Tina Divina and Director Ev Salomon. Directed by Ev Salomon.
Starring Ashlee Holland and Lamon Archey.
Poem by Tina Divina.
"Say you tried and now you wanna say good bye." *Ugh* I hate feeling like that but in the case of this story it has a little more "Fatal Attraction" factor to this. I guess once you really fall for a person it can make you crazy. One day I will understand how much love takes you over inside and outside if a relationship.
Friday, June 5, 2009
Take a look and see that you'll find
A pack of men in her hand
Ready to fulfill all her demands
Bending over backwards for her attention
And I forgot to mention
The lust she uses is addictive
Once hooked you can't use Prescriptive
To hide and cover up the blemish
Lust for her will never diminish
Even though she is through
Her wounds won't stop hurting you
Making you need her in more ways than one
Then realizing life ain't much fun
Without her the extra piece of peace on the side
Thursday, June 4, 2009
I am so not use to staying in one place for long time because it starts to drive me nuts. I am starting to hate everything and everybody that comes along with it. It has even got so bad that I just can't hold my tongue anymore when people ask me "What should I do?", but they really mean to say is “Can you approve what I want to do”? I am just ready to escape from the bull shit that surrounds me because it is getting so old. Not it is old, been old, like last month old, UGH so over this
I have a few reasons (like itty bitty) to stay but they are not any of the good kind either. They are all for other people, which I heard is not a good reason to do anything but obviously I am still here so it’s working (sort of).
I have started to fall back into old habits smoking to numb myself to the restlessness I feel on an everyday basis. Cursing people out like the stereotypical black woman, which I am not. Telling people how I feel no matter how it makes them feel as long as it makes me feel better in the long term. I need to move, I need a change of pace ASAP. I may have to resort to some extreme behavior so that I have to be removed.
P.S. This songs applies to my mind but the situation of cheating doesn't apply to me.