HAPPY HOLIDAYS *update*

Let's see . . .

School is GREAT
Right Place Right Time

New Boy from the last post
He's still here
We are going very well
Better than I ever thought after 5 months of knowing each other

My girls are doing fine *clears throat*

Ms. Need a Man has several men in her life
Nope not jealous
I believe the you should play the game
BUT not with your own HEART
Guess I'll be there again to watch it crash and burn
This time we'll have a come to Jesus Meeting



Ms. Sis
She's having a Blast in college
Taking advantage of being SINGLE
Hope she's truly happy with all her decisions



PARTY PARTY PARTY
I've missed two parties that I was suppose to attend
Mandy and Court both turned 21 without me *pout*
I'm sure they had a blast though



I have to say I'm pretty happy now
I hate that I'm never happy enough to stop looking
Settling down has that 'S' word I don't like to use
I'd rather have what I want than anything at all
He's what I want for now
I know that for sure
IF at any point this turns into what I had you know me
*Slamming the gas petal* *screeching tires*
I'll be out like a candle on a birthday cake



*NEW YEAR RESOLUTION*
Be real happy not just half way



P.S. He got married. I'm sure the others will to because I pray for them

Our Last Time

Portrait of Kristen and Michael

Walking out of the movies with you was like a dream come true. As we walk to the car we talks about the movie. Upon approaching the car we start to talk about us falling asleep together a couple of day ago. We talks about us and what we were going to do. He didn't want to commit to me and I was just tires of playing couple when he wants. He and I enter my car to further the discussion. Once again it makes me emotional and a few tears fall from my face and he wipes them away. He then tells me that he wants see me emotional since usually they are nonexistent.

He strokes my face and we began to kiss intimately. In my mind I have dreamed of this moment for what seems like forever. He eases his hand between my legs feeling the warmth that is being exerts by my lust. He starts by rubbing me slowly through my Vicky’s making my wetness starts to leak through them and on to his hand. I shaking so bad I can't stay still, my leg is twitching and my body is craving for more. He moves my panties out of the way and plunges right into my lust. It quickens my breath as if I am breathless and began feeling my lust throbbing relentlessly in his hand. He keeps plunging his fingers repeatedly like he is reaching for my ecstasy. I regain some consciousness and tell him to stop. My mind and my body are arguing and I realize I can't do this with him. He means too much to just fuck and duck. I know I would become that girl who gets all attaches to a guy that just wants to fuck. It didn't matter to me how long we had know each other but every year flashes before my eyes and makes it real to me that he wants my lust and that is what really comprises him. He pulls out wipes his hand on the napkins I had.

We talk a little after that and a few days after that but when I couldn't get him to return a simple call or texts I realizes he don't want me just it. In June on his birthday I texts him "Happy Birthday this will be the first and last time you will hear that or anything else from me." To which he replies "Thanks". Well as you may imagine I am not over him, but I know he isn’t what I need now. As my one of my besties said “If he really cares for you in the way you think he does he will come back.” I replied to her, “He has come back once not sure if he will come back again.” She just looked at me and said “Well screw him you are great and I promise you will find another better.” UGH I hate female pep talks the are so predictable.

The Mistress

Well this is a poem I wrote about 4 years ago while I was still in high school. At this time I was dating a married man who made me feel like the only chick that mattered to him. During this time he was taking care of me in every way (mentally, physically, emotionally) making sure I was okay before he left to be with his wife. But any way this poem express how I felt when I was with any man who already had a lady whether that be wife, girl friend, or lover. I was the . . .

Man Watching Lover Sleep-Image by © Vincent Besnault/zefa/Corbis

The Mistress

She walks with seduction on mind

Take a look and see that you'll find

A pack of men in her hand

Ready to fulfill all her demands

Bending over backwards for her attention

And I forgot to mention

The lust she uses is addictive

Once hooked you can't use Prescriptive

To hide and cover up the blemish

Lust for her will never diminish

Even though she is through

Her wounds won't stop hurting you

Making you need her in more ways than one

Then realizing life ain't much fun

Without her the extra piece of peace on the side

20 Things I know at 20

Hello peeps

Totally been felling like this

So I decided not to post till I felt like this


I have been on the worse emotional roller coaster ever

I didn't go through it alone though which is nice

This growing up thing is hard

I think back to the days of this


Things I think I know at 20

1. Dudes 20-25 can't make up their mind to save their own lives *exception of a few*
2. I make more money than people with masters
   
3. Being able to escape saves my life
   
4. If he say this is going the way he planned that mean u (the chick) are the problem
5. I may never have that close relationship with my mother and I am good with that
6. Being best friends with dudes is a blast and will forever be
7. I don't wanna get married
8. I like a man with a plan not one who is looking at me for one
9. I am simple and easy to please
10. I don't play hard to get
11. I am hard to get
12. I believe there is no such thing as a soul mate too many single woman for that statistic to work out
13. I will be at everyone's wedding *Miss 27 Suits and Dresses*
14. Waiting on someone is a waste unless after he moves on
15. Sex ain't all that all the time
16. Going to a strip club is way better than going to a lounge or dance club about 80% of the time
17. People in college may never grow up
18. You can't cheat if you were never together
19. Being pigeon footed is not a problem that I can fix
20. WONDER IF I YOU'LL EVER FIND OUT HOW IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE

I am pretty sure about these thing at 20 as I can be but their is room for growth so we will see what this next year will bring

P.S. I feel bad for women name Keisha they get brutalized in songs all the time damn. Suck for you

The Real Battle

On the left she stands

Ready to play the game she has grown to love

On the right she stand

Heart in hand wanting to give it to any man who'll love her

On the left she stands

Spitting a game thick it'll make any man sick

On the right she stands

With a heart so pure and touched

On the left she stands

Luring men in with each syllable

On the right she stands

Wishing she could enjoy the love of a man

On the left she stands

Making this man believe he can have her

On the right she stands

Just waiting on the real thing

On the left she stands

Protecting 'She' on the right

From ever getting hurt again

Like she was with the last Man