Baby We Just Happened ...

We were once the best of friends
Knowing nothing till the end
Earning it more and more
Looking forward to what's in store
I fell with lustful eyes and an open heart
Hating every second while we are apart
Hearing my minds eye "You're letting your feelings show"
They grow
Deep and long and tender to touch
Wanting to submerge myself in your much
Waiting for the time to come
Peaking at the top
Ready to hop
And
I jumped
Then bumped
And fell from grace
Now I am don't wanna race
I am pushing you away
Out from my way
While the tears fall
The wall
Gets bigger
I get bitter

Mistress, Lover, Best Friend, Woman

Put no one above her

Losing to her yearning time and time

Spending your last dime

Entertaining thoughts of her

Deepening the blur

Hint of it surfacing and bubbling

Over popping

On all who can see

She is holding the key

Waiting on you to show her the way

The pathway to play

Enticed by every word on her lips

As you watch her hip

Sway in that methodical way

Praying that she may stay

Just a little longer than forever

Crazy In Love

This is a Short Film
Co-Wrote by Tina Divina and Director Ev Salomon. Directed by Ev Salomon.
Starring Ashlee Holland and Lamon Archey.
Poem by Tina Divina.
"Say you tried and now you wanna say good bye." *Ugh* I hate feeling like that but in the case of this story it has a little more "Fatal Attraction" factor to this. I guess once you really fall for a person it can make you crazy. One day I will understand how much love takes you over inside and outside if a relationship.

The Mistress

Well this is a poem I wrote about 4 years ago while I was still in high school. At this time I was dating a married man who made me feel like the only chick that mattered to him. During this time he was taking care of me in every way (mentally, physically, emotionally) making sure I was okay before he left to be with his wife. But any way this poem express how I felt when I was with any man who already had a lady whether that be wife, girl friend, or lover. I was the . . .

Man Watching Lover Sleep-Image by © Vincent Besnault/zefa/Corbis

The Mistress

She walks with seduction on mind

Take a look and see that you'll find

A pack of men in her hand

Ready to fulfill all her demands

Bending over backwards for her attention

And I forgot to mention

The lust she uses is addictive

Once hooked you can't use Prescriptive

To hide and cover up the blemish

Lust for her will never diminish

Even though she is through

Her wounds won't stop hurting you

Making you need her in more ways than one

Then realizing life ain't much fun

Without her the extra piece of peace on the side

False Love

I fell for your lies

Especially that look in your eyes

You stare at the real me

Well beneath thee

I wanted it so bad

Craving what I've never had

Reaching for something

Constantly pumping

Pumping up myself with mess

Causing myself distress

While looking into your eye

As you tell me lies

The lies that I must believe

Destined to achieve

The false love I need

Leaving for More

Touching me like him

Kissing me like him

What's the difference

It's the same hindrance

No real connection

Just wanna use protection

I let them ease up to me

Getting closer to me

Roll the dice

See if you both can score

Not like those whores

Who don't want more

I need a foundation

Before you get this creation

Over the fascination of sex

Going to get me that respect

The Real Battle

On the left she stands

Ready to play the game she has grown to love

On the right she stand

Heart in hand wanting to give it to any man who'll love her

On the left she stands

Spitting a game thick it'll make any man sick

On the right she stands

With a heart so pure and touched

On the left she stands

Luring men in with each syllable

On the right she stands

Wishing she could enjoy the love of a man

On the left she stands

Making this man believe he can have her

On the right she stands

Just waiting on the real thing

On the left she stands

Protecting 'She' on the right

From ever getting hurt again

Like she was with the last Man

Crazy Thing Called ...

Sliding down the wall

Feeling my tears fall

Unable to stand up

I'm just ready to give up

I yearn for what's real

Jumping at every chance to feel

No need for drugs

I just want to get bit by that bug

The ever elusive feeling I have resisted

I have tasted a dip

Lust now for a big sip

But it was pulled right from underneath me

Now I am feeling my knees weakening

Wishing to stop these feelings

Pause to breath

Now I can see clearly

It Was A Dream Possibly

At 19 you're not suppose to find something real

You were the first to make me feel

My heart I was willing to give to you

I was definitely in fear of you

Maybe we met to soon

Now I feel like a buffoon

Standing alone waiting for you

It's funny cause you are true

You like me for me

In return I like you for you

We have this passion that's not contains

But more than lust remains

At 19 we have our lives apart

Hope to one day to have a restart

Maybe I imagined it all for the start

Possible Death of My Last Real Thing

When we kiss it's like magic

I know we ended and it's tragic

When I let my mind wonder

I can see us under the stars

That famous night where we kiss

Also the exact moment I miss

Holding hands

Yet making no plans

We felt the chemistry

Back in High School

Now we have no time

I now ring to a different chime

I like things that most girls don't

Like football, strip clubs, and porn

I guess that's too much for you to handle

Maybe I am too much of a gamble

We are done for now

But maybe it's for good

I'd have hope in a jar if I could

What's next???

Every man's dream

Is very delicate flower

He dreams about her

Every single hour

She can be anything

But he only wants one

She has never been so wrapped up

Her game is usually on point

She is falling for him

Like the time before

Blind to what everyone else does

Her friends ask "why you going back"

She can't help it he sucks her in

She can smell the game

Spilling through the phone

But she is left speechless by his flattery

The flattery is charming

But never seems to last

She believes they may be meant to be

All her girls are there

Making sure she doesn't break

She is very curious what this may be

Loves the lust too much to resist

Wants more of him

He rejects her

But those feeling remain the same

She realizes he could be different

Maybe he moving on

He has a yo-yo girl he can always bring back

Yo-yo girl is her is you is ...

I

Refuse To Wait Forever

The lies and the mistakes of others

I trust whole heartily

Why are they the ones whom betray me

Why can I not move pass it

Have I not fully forgiven them

Is it that I have learned a lesson that I cannot forget

How do I go about forgiving them

Keeping my eyes open for the same test again

Maybe I have not learned my lesson

It seem like complete insanity

I do the same crap over and over and over again.

Everything in my life is new

Except for this same situation I have put my self back into

I wonder what it is for me to learn from this

I thought I found the answer but here it is again

I know my friends want me to let it go but

I just can't is my addiction

This was my addiction

I am done

Dusting my hands and knees off

Walking away in killer heels

Looking Back at NCJ

Behind was you but now you are here in face

I can't erase you from my life

You have come back twice

Even after what happened the last time

I will not allow you to hurt me unintentionally or intentionally

I told you the last time how I felt about you

You have to leave me alone for my own sake

I am so fragile that I break myself

To you I am just another girl on your list

I have no meaning to you at all

I figured out why we stopped talking

It is because you consistently lie

Or maybe I just don’t believe you

But the chuckle in the background is not comforting

Am I the front, the back, or someone you seem to remember out of convince

Or ever so clearly that you can’t forget me

I wish you could be as clear as I am

I know what I want and I will have it

You are my favorite nothing with or without you

At first site

Bodies communicating

Without words

Touching and feeling

Without words

Heighten senses reaching peaks

Without words

Caressing the heart

Without words

Passions palpable

Without words

So deeply intertwined

Without words

Can't breath

Without words

Weakening knees

Without words

Strengthening urges

Without words

Removed from this world

Without words

Love or Lust at first site

Which is it? Have you ever felt this way?