Giving up on Dating

I was having a conversation with a guy friend of mine one facebook. He and I discuss all the random ish that happens in my head. This day we were discussing why in my 20s I feel like I want to give up on dating PERIOD!! and why men can't have a real conversation with a woman. So here is the conversation:

Princess

Today at 11:21am

Not sure but I am sure something is wrong with me. I think I may become just another one of those people who can't bond properly with others.

MD

Today at 11:40am

NO I DONT THINK SO....LOOK AT US....YOUR A VERY NICE PERSON TO TALK TO......I TOLD YOU BEFORE I WANTED TO GET TO KNOW YOU A LITTLE BETTER BUT IM NOT GONNA FORCE YOU TO DO ANY THING YOU DONT WANT TO DO......AND IF YOU CAN TALK TO ME AND I KNOW IM DIFFICULT...LOL

Princess

Today at 11:57am

I don't mean like that but a personal relationship with people. I realize that I speak to and we have these conversations but I never have to face you at least not unwillingly. What I mean to say is when I meet people I smile and laugh and completely look like we are having a great time but yet on the inside I am scream at them to shut up because I don't care what they have to say. I also mean to say that when I have had to cut people off from my life the same since of caring or really the lack of there of resurfaces as if were never gone. I also mean that I just don't think that I can form an actual interest into a person without think this person has no idea how dumb they sound while I shake my head in agreement or disagreement with them.

I know this is a lot but if you get confused somewhere let me know.

MD

Today at 12:37pm

SO BASICALLY YOU NEED MORE THAN THE AVERAGE IDIOT OUT THERE.....LOL....YOU NEED SOMEONE YOU CAN RELATE WITH IN EVERY ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE.....THING IS YOU ATTRACT THE ONES WHO COMES UP....AYE SHAWTY....RATHER THAN HOW ARE YOU DOING MISS

Princess

Today at 12:59pm

I don't give the type of guy that would even call me shawty (very disrespectful and meaningless word) the time of day, but even when I speak back to a guy calls me miss or beauty or any other words used for flattery I still have that felling that I know that this also is just as shallow. I mean I am only 20 years old and I feel like no one (totally exaggerating) can have a real conversation like my political views, or what I wanna do and why, or how come you think like that. I mean talk to me like a person not like I am dense or I can't think on my own or I have no opinion at my age, or even like I am only interested in things that will land them and me in a bed together. Which leads me to think I don't even wanna be with you like that when you can't even hold a conversation. I find this occurs in people in there teens all the way up to their late 20 early thirties and that still depends on when they think this is a good time for them to grow up in their mind. I am 20 and I just don't think it is natural for me to feel like I am ready to just stop dating period

MD

Today at 1:15pm

wow thats serious.....but then again thats how most people act to me also....but im a person who acts childish myself when i can....now for all the time have we spoken and being honest now....what do you think?

Princess

Today at 1:18pm

You are cool people and have being willing to listen to me rant

MD

Today at 1:20pm

well thats my thing...i love hearing people talk/rant whatever you want to call it.....something to talk about......its like im always the one finding something to talk about no matter who i talk to....i'm not saying we should be talking about the periodic table but atleast have something better to talk about than that new beyonce CD

Princess

Today at 1:23pm

right there are more things that matter in life than just the pop culture BS and over publicized events

Well we went on and on about this for a while but this is basically the meat and bones of the situation. Have you ever felt like "If I never have to go out with another dude I would be ok with that". Is this a part of life and growing up or and I just screwed up in the head like that.